Right now, I am thinking about the times when someone asks me how I “survived” a hard time in my life… It’s funny because I usually can’t remember the grief that I was experiencing at the time, but I do remember where my hope was. Certain times, I remember the grief, but I block the memory out of my mind so that my first response still is, “I can’t remember how I felt.”
I really do remember what I was hoping for though and where I believed strength would come from. I suppose now what matters most is the change.
ON A DIFFERENT NOTE BUT THE SAME THEME:
I think when you decide to make someone special to you, they should “stick” in your mind. It is just as easy to say after a while of things not going the way you expected, “I can’t remember how I felt.” Regardless of the complications, I really do believe we should remain faithful to what we once saw as genuine or divine even. That is… Unless you were being a complete idiot about it from the beginning. In such case, you need to be real with yourself.
The down side… Is the possibility of you being faithful to someone who could care less about you in the end. However, I don’t think that you should ever begin such a situation without God and letting Him lead completely…
So with that in mind, your choices are: Be vulnerable (and responsible about it). Or don’t.
One means you are trying for change. The other means you’re protecting yourself from it. And I completely understand.
